burst of anger

Now, I feel good, had a bloody good laugh in the dullest TV show ever, family guy. Still feels like I lost all mind yesterday. I can put my finger on it, but something is different, I cant be mad at government, and it makes me sad.

First of all, what is supposed to be Latvia`s future? Is it becoming small Switzerland, we cant, we are`nt boring enough. So is it becoming a tourist city. Impossible here is absolutely nothing to see besides girls, if you know what I mean. Sex tourism is a not good "career" choice for Latvia. So is it set to be home of science and technology, possibly if we murder all our government and replace them if people who actually think, not steal. This bring me to the question, what are Latvia good at, what is in Latvia what we could be proud of? Certainly not literature. We used to be sort of powerful advanced country, but who are we now? Delivery boy of EU, scraper of Russians? We used to have strong economics, we built one of the very first tanks, we had the engineers for Star Wars movies. But it`s all replaced with crappy economics, and engineers with skills as a bomb. So only thing here in Latvia that is actually tremendous people. And I hope that our government will realize that we are all that Latvia will ever have, and that they wont swap us with apes form Šleser family, or they wont makes us leave.

At the this moment, our state is up for election and we have to choice (basicly) it is to vote for apes of for communists. You may say, that there many more political parties. But in reality we live in a non-democrative society, but we dont. Honestly how many people voted for SC? One, Two? Have you ever asked your neighbour what is he going to vote for ? And here is the point, our government play on that, we all will not ever, ever, know about what others vote. So they decides for us, that`s why they never change, and therefore all apes for Slesers family sits in parliament. And the have all the power. And I hate that. Ok, this non-democrativ theme not only describes our parliament, but our every day in general. As prime example school. Do we have freedom of toughts there? In some lessons. In most it is suckuping to teachers, and adore their opinion in order to get a good mark. It disgusts me. Can we really say what we think? No. Because it will insult someone, and this "someone" will do everything do destroy you from this earth, and he will, because he is communist, unable to understand different ways of thinking. So what exactly school teaches us? That drinking is bad, and it kills our brain? That we used to live on Mars? That science is wrong, and baby Jesus will save us all? Why cant we simply ignore other opinion and live with our own? There isnt such thing as wrong " thoughts", its impossible to be. I think that 2+2 = SleserSuxBalls , and prove me wrong. You cant, because I will ignore you.

Ok, this dosent make any sense at all. Absolutely none, but I will still continue to write, to justify my self. So any of married his wife, or was together with his girlfriend because it made sense? No, so this is why I am writing this to express my feelings.

Justifying my self, will require some scientistic proof, so I went on experimenting last night.I had to donate my time and body in name of science. And definitely absolutely I am right, drinking with mates makes day more fun. So why does at school they say "alchocol is bad" , of course it is bad for you livers, and brain. But boredom kills faster,it does (not if you are fan of latvian literature) since when life isnt all about spending time of our lives, since when it is all about math? Ok I am not party type- guy, I loath night clubs, or huge parties. I like to spend time with friends. The main idea of a friend, is not to make you do math better than Pythagoras, the main idea is to make you laugh your lungs out.

I hope this entry made you think a bit. But the billion times more I hope it made you realize something. Something I realized very recently. And it is up for you to choose what.

hehehe

I wanted today to posy my opinion on Democracy and is it really working. But I have decided to post it tomorrow and to combine it with some other issue I may have. Hope, I did not disappoint some of you.

But, come to think of it, you never know, maybe I`ll poster later.

Deadly legacy, the problem of modern education.

So, today I face the problem of modern education. So at my school there are 4 different classes to take, A,B,C,E one is physics (A), one is biology (E), and other 2 is something with economics. But what is main difference between these classes? Its one or two lessons. But worst is yet to come, all of them forces us to lean latvian literature, which put, it the absolutely most boring and utterly utterly most useless subject of all time since "banana peeling", even that was more interesting back then at stone age. Come to think of it, it still would be more interesting, and more useful. So what is the main problem of latvian literature, beside boringness, hmmm, it`s all same. Today I had to sit in literature and I started to wonder " Why, did he wrote this", and here is what I came up with :

"I truly believe that if we searched past of all latvian writers ( till 1999 or so, the old ones in case ), they all would have up clear, no drugs, no crimes, history (background ) do you know why? Not because they were most boring persons ever(and they were) , not because they were super geeks ( which they were), but because they worked for super secrete government project. Torturing. They task was to write in such boring and deadly way, that all future non-commies (cumunists) would die, of boredom. I almost did today, I sat there and read, I felt like my brain is killing it`s own cells, just to have some fun.I think hitting my self with a rock would be more pleasure than reading it."

So, why does education system makes us kill our self? Because they have read all latvian literature, therefore they have no brains at all. Why do I have to learn latvian literature, honestly I do not care about it. Now you can say, Jesus, you have to know it you are latvian. But think before you criticize, what is in it for me. Can I or you have a good job in latvia at the moment? No. Can we have in future? Probably. But what to point thing of probabilities when you know for sure, that there always be a better job in USA or UK. Ok, and when the crisis ends, do you really believe that they wont take you at the job, just because you dont know latvian literature? (No, is answer)So I would definatly spend that time (latvian literature) on English, or German, or even math. It would be so much better. "

And this bring me to my next point of today. Why it is obligated to take latvian language exam? And why there is literatue in ir?Because I live in latvian. Yeah right. All those russians, will take it. Its a baby poo, they wont, wake up government. Ok, it`s a possibility that you want to become literatures teacher.You can,if it were up for a chose, not forced.

And if you are interested in latvian literature, you can take it, it should be a subject of choise. And Im saying this as a bookwork, i love to read, not to die. So for sake of mankind. Dont make me lose my brain reading latvian shit. Please.Do our government think that we are stupid as them? Because if I were interested in latvian literature, I would have read till this moment.

And Im begging day after day, please dont makes us (me) read it, plase stop. Please God give common sense to our government. Please.

Ok,I have become to emotional, I will stop now, I have to go and calm my self, and some how regain those cells that died to die, they died in honour to save me. I will probably go and get drunk, and will discuss this topic with my mates.

So, see ya` till my next fucking problem.

Sorry, my bad.

Honestly, what would you do if someone , lets say me came at took your money. You would kill me or at least hit me, wouldn`t you? If not, you must be banned for up coming elections, because you have no, literally no back bone, and if you are male -penis, or you have tons of money, and that means you are a deputy, and its worse than not having a penis. So, as I see the problems is that deputies take our money, and the buy a bran new Mercedes S500, of course its a great car, with more extras and electronics that your house, and more spacious than mine, but if fact the only reason why my house is smaller that deputies car, and yours have no extras, is because of that S500. It is. So they take our pensions, take our money, but a Merc, and say "sorry, I was wrong" And what to we do after 4 year vote for same prick again. How its possible that Šlesers even got into parliament, HOW?! My dog is smarter that him, he is, he go 10 points in IQ test, 6more than Šleser. So here come my point of today, you can have an IQ of a dumb ape, you can look like one, and yet you can get futher in life that the handsome male/female with IQ of 5000, if you know how to lie. I am not suggesting for you to go home and lie to your moms&dads about marks, or usage of alchocol.. but today I had a speach at school and I could lie to teacher because shed didnt know a thing about it. So does Šleser, he dosent know what he is talking about, or what he is doing, he uses all his 4 IQ points to lie! Uhh, just got that, maybe be he lied on IQ test as well? Hmm... Ok, so if you lie to everyone you will be liked by everyone, take example form Šleser, he stole your grandmother pension and she will be voting for him this year, because he lied. He lied to russians, he lied to his mother (about not beeing a prick and gay) , , he lied to everyone, for God dammit he fucking cried on telly. He is master of lie. And here is a top tip for you, if you have an IQ of 4, and you have no idea what you are doing at school , go become Šleser, but let me remind you I will go after you. I cant handle him, so what to do about 2 .

We all probably have wondered, what is the source of crisis, is it that in all world is crisis, bullshit, is it because EU have crisis, bullshit, is it because Latvia is stupid, bullshit. It is because of gays, sorry I misspelled guys, like Šleser who wants a bigger Merc, a smaller penis, and more money from your grannies pension, it all because of him. And all we get it the end , is not a polite apology, or cool assassination of him, yeah why is he still alive? All we get is " Sorry, my bad, I wont do it again" .... yeah right, you wont....

Facts

So, as you may see in my previous post, it is hard for me to make up an title today, it`s all because of sports day. I want address this topic to a modern day problem - Decisions. We have to make simply to many of them, where to study, what to do, who you will become, what exam will you take and so on, but I am not sure of my future. I dont know who or what(in worst case) I will become, so why there is not any information at, lets say our school, uhh, you may say there is, some 5 year old paper sticked to the wall in help of some cheap bubble gum, but REAL information what could help you or me to choose. Of course we all could head down town to all universities for intervies, to ask what can I gain if I study here? Simply. They say you can have that and that uh i forgot about that, but in real life, you can have 4 years of math , couse it is Latvia, it`s all math here. But there is 0 information about abroad studies or education. Isnt Latvia interested in our good mind going to EU or USA, or even China? NO, is the answer, they want for us to stay here, and do what all students do, that is not working. Is it even possible for most of student to actually work here? I am concerned about my future, truth to be told I dont want to leave, but it looks like only option left is to leave.

Ok enough of that, I dont want to ruin my day just by being angry on our stupid government. But I am. Very.

So ok, today I did write about one of my all time favourite personalities Aryton Senna, he is one heck of a person.

Uhh, that would be it for me today, lets hope I can come up with better title for tomorrow. I hope that some one is ever reading this, but if not, heheh, it is still good to express my anger, here on internet, were it will make no difference, and here where no one is ever going to read it. Thats the other paradox of human - to do some thing that will not change a thing, that what no one is ever going to read, but still do it.....

ahh

nothing happened today.

Incomplete perfection.

Today in early morning I walked to school and wondered about the future day. It was pretty sunny, - pretty good morning, but then school started, today was absolutely most boring day in my life, only interesting subject I had was chemistry, and we did boring stuff there as well. So I sat there and thought, why do so many people want to be perfect? Is being perfect something to reach for? I think that perfection is dull and boring, like school, isint it perfect?! Honestly can you image one thing that is perfect and not dull&booring? I can`t, but the most dull thing, ever to do is to be mister/misis perfect friend, perfect character. I hate that, if you have no thoughts of your self, or if you dont share your real opinion on things, or hide your true thought behind a mask,what is then the point of beeing, at all, to feel the flow, to be like the rest? I dont think so, we all should be different, no different perfect, because perfection is absolute. (and its dull). We all should be how we are, and do what we want to, not what will make us perfect. If you are annoyed by a mate - share this annoyment to him, hit him if you must. But dont "be" perfect buddy couse in real hearth and thougths you are not. So the simple truth in this is that you are a perfect liar. And as I said before, all good things in life isnt perfect such as love, money,friendship. And if you say, that you are perfect, you are doing the worst thing possible, lying to your self.

So simple conslusion is that the incompletness makes us perfect.

Paradox of life

So today`s entry I will start with joy of joys, I got a good mark, what can be more exciting in school than a good/great mark? A fire at chemistries cabinet? A mad horse in GYM? Nah, for me good mark at school is like booze off ( Im not alchocolic) but somehow it makes day more fun. But as I have decided to drink more rarely, I will have to get this joy by marks, or hopefully find another day. Ok, one thing is to talk to friends, its funny as well, yeah it is. Its funny to meet them, but thing when ever you go out with your mates, what is the only thing you dont forget at home, clock? dont think so, Mobile phone, nah, wrong answer, it that small bottle of lets say liquid, you seem to never forget.

School today besides great mark at English was pretty boring, as usual, its not supposed to be fun, I think. Some mates at school managed to be annoying as usual. That is very normal. You should have bad moments, to enjoy those when you are at top, so Im cool with that someone pick on me.I simply realize that he is having his time at top, his 5 min. fame .

Paradox of life. Why did I choose such a topic, it seemed good. It did. So kind of what I am trying to say, you have to be picked up to pick up some one else. You have to realize the point and importance of bad moments, to see how good and mind tickling, and amazing are good ones. Thats my paradox. And I like it.

So.....so.......so......hmmm....What else I wanted to mention....let me think a bit....Im guessing this is it for today, who know maybe I`ll post something later as well..

So later!

Long time no see.

So, I haven`t write here, in a while, a year if precise. So, here I come again. My today`s topic will be " Social issues".

Two days ago, I went to bar with my mates, chaps, lads, doesn`t matter how you call them. It was a nice night out, but I hate when I have to walk 2 km just to help my chaps girlfriend, who cant find a way to Opera, how possibly lame that is, not able to find a way to one of the most spectacular building in Latvia, it would be absolutely normal, if she didn`t live in Riga. Second problem I faced that day, was boredom, time flew, but not because I had an great time, because i was drunk and kind of didnt care what other were saying, I was in my own drunk world, were hot topless (in worst scenario) women walks around.

Next problem I have, is in general, its about "does individual or group of individuals stands above society? " I think not. You may say that I am a communist, and if I am, please stab me. But I am not, so there isnt a thing for me to worry about. Ok, back to problem, if individual or group of individuals had a good idea, such as ultimate power source, or the solution of world economical crisis, or idea how to make infinite fuel for all petrol heads, I had no problem at all in dictatorship, but what if these individuals were eco-mentalists, green-peace guys, or gays. We all were doomed. Doomed I say. You wonder how this connects to my problem? Cause I do, wonder how to explain. So what if you have to pay, 20 LVL for, lets say, a car for teacher, because some individuals in your country (class) have decided that " yeah, its a great idea to do so! " But when you, in your democratical dream world decide, "nah, iI dont wanna pay". What to do in that situation, if you dont pay - individuals say -" you are mad, negative person! we hate you" , if you do you put yourself lower than other, you loose in fact, you loose your opinion, and you loose not to them, but to yourself. So I decline to pay, and said what I believed - it`s a stupid idea, i dont like it, I love in a FREE world, and I DECIDE not to pay.

So this would be it, for a while. I`ll be back, to tell about my summer, which in one world was " unusual". Now, I will go to think about my personality (5 pros and 5 cons) All I have come at the moments is - I am the absolutely best person in the world!